stuff musicians go through

In his brilliant, informative, and almost always entertaining blog, the pianist Jeremy Denk talks about the mundane details of practicing, and what we musicians do to either make ourselves do it or do when we just don’t feel like it. Here are three seminal paragraphs:

I played them several times; wrote in fingerings (soon to be corrected, changed); tried to connect my brain more definitely to the tips of my fingers; contemplated the shaping and timing of the turn; and then–shamelessly–skipped to the coda. I am only human! I admit sometimes I just want to skip to the “good parts.” As much as I wish I could, I do not always enjoy every piece equally at every moment; I have weaknesses for certain moments and I build my conceptions around them, toward them. But, I tell myself, Beethoven must have built his conception towards this coda too. How could he not? I often enjoy thinking about the pride composers must have felt at having written certain passages; even they were pleased, even their impossible standards were met.

As I played the coda, I felt guilty. Not for skipping to it; but because I needed to accomplish “something useful” before I gave myself this searing pleasure. In a flash, I recalled my former teacher, Gyorgy Sebok, impeccably dressed–having parked, as always, illegally in the loading zone–walking into a lesson I had with him, saying that he had just vacuumed the house, and that it made him “feel useful.” He smiled his European, utterly cultured smile, which commented ironically all at once on the vacuum, on himself vacuuming, and on the very idea of usefulness. The incomparable guru finding himself useless, sucking up dust.

So, I tore myself away from the piano and I hauled the Hoover out of the closet and cursed its non-retractable cord and cursed the astonishingly outdated electrical systems of my building, and cursed the red carpet I put in the piano room, which seems to put an exclamation point on every morsel of dirt it collects…. and thus cursing, I did a serviceable job. With the unpleasant Hoover smell lingering in my nostrils, making me want to cough, I removed my coat and sat down at the piano, calmed by the carpet’s clarity. Now I took on the coda in earnest. This slow movement is a difficult, painstaking narrative, in that we have to follow (Beethoven unravels) the same long thread twice: he makes us re-experience the same sequence of events with only a small modification the second go-around. It tests our patience, or at least it tests mine.

It’s a great description of what we go through. I often will choose to balance my checkbook upon opening my viola case – then after having done that (and often depressed by the resulting balance), I can really dig in to the work that needs to be done. The best part of what Jeremy writes about is the fact that we often are impatient – we want to just learn the piece(s) miraculously, without all the agonizing and failures that accompany a thorough practice session.

One reason that musicians (at least many of them) are neurotic is that we fail every single day. We fail when we don’t practice, we fail when we don’t practice enough, we fail when we don’t play something the way it sounds in our inner ear, and we fail when we pracice too long past our effective limits and either burn out mentally or injur ourselves. Singers have coaches that they work with on new repertoire, athletes too. Instrumentalists, however, often work in their own private bubble, with an occasional session of playing for a friend or a former teacher once or twice a year at most.

Musicians rely upon themselves for almost everything – their livelihood, their inspiration, their motivation – it’s no wonder that we’re a bit screwed up sometimes. Next time you look into an orchestra and wonder why the musicians (perhaps not all of them) are not smiling as they play, remember where they came from.

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a busy week…

pink in seattle 12-28-05

(Photo by Viv)
For most musicians, the week between Christmas and New Year’s Day is pretty uneventful. For me, however, it was quite a bit busier than usual the last couple years. Last year I went down to Los Angeles to play as a member of the Harvy Rosencrantz Orchestra, the string band that accompanies the Portland-based band Pink Martini at the drool-enducing Walt Disney Concert Hall.

This year, I had two gigs with this wonderful ensemble, a concert in Seattle at the Paramount Theater on December 28th, and two shows on New Year’s Eve at the Arlene Schnitzer Concert Hall in Portland, Oregon. What made this event even more special was (1) the fact that it was being broadcast live on National Public Radio for their Toast of America program, and it was being filmed for future DVD release and PBS pledge drive airings sometime in 2006-2007. No pressure!

One thing that strikes me each time that I work with this group of musicians is that so-called ‘popular’ music gets a bad rap – these men and woman are some of the hardest working and most musically accomplished people that I ever get a chance to work with. Just trying to imagine remembering the lyrics to several dozen songs makes my head spin – and that’s what lead vocalist China Forbes does many times a year, making it look effortless in the process.

So, next time you enjoy a live performance (and I hope this is something that you’re doing regularly) by your favorite band or jazz ensemble, remember that they’re working just as hard to hone their craft as those people sawing and blowing away at your local symphony orchestra concert.

Here is a link to a short set of Pink Martini playing on NPR’s World Cafe – enjoy!
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